They say when life hands you lemons, you should make lemonade. However, I usually buy lemonade at the grocery store. So now I have all these lemons laying around everywhere, and I'm not sure how long I should hang onto them before deciding I have no intention of using them and ultimately throwing them out. Is there a grace period - like how long you have to display a birthday card from a loved one on the refrigerator before you take it down? Or can you just cast them out immediately? The longer I dwell on this analogy, the more I wonder if I should be expected throw them out at all? Should I donate my intangible, tragically symbolic lemons to some kind of karmic charity? Or should I pack them away in a time capsule and bury them? Would they be of less use to me fresh than spoiled or decomposed? Likely not... but I digress...
I'm at a point in life where I'm trying to decide how much control my circumstances can and should have over my happiness. I long to be happy again. I'd like to decide to be happy. But my current situation is a constant hindrance. Left alone with my thoughts, I wonder... do I even have the power or the resolve to make my situation better? To will it better, faster? Should I be expected to wait for the dust to settle before moving onward and upward? My emotional and logical mind are at odds. But for the first time in months, I think my logical mind might finally be gaining some ground. Now, if only I could get a better handle on what it truly means to be happy... what it means to me. Then, I'd be in business!
